KC | Chapter 50

Chapter 60, “I Won’t Run Away Again.”

When the secret crush buried deep underground broke through its shackles, when the noisy desire swallowed up the silence, at this moment the moonlit night shattered the barely covered balance, and reason could no longer restrain emotion.

Lin Yiran confirmed once again, “Chen Xi, it was my voice call, I didn’t dial the wrong number.”

“Oh.” Chen Xi’s voice was very light and very small, and if Lin Yiran didn’t close the window, it would be blown away by the autumn wind.

The schizophrenic patient’s heart was uneasy. Those words just now were too explicit, too intimate, not something that should be said between 419 partners, and even less something a subordinate could say to a superior. Lin Yiran was so smart, he would quickly guess that I like him.

Before, Lin Yiran didn’t know I liked him, and we could still tacitly let it pass and move on. But now he knew I liked him, and even said “he was listening,” no matter what, this matter could no longer be brushed aside.

He had been pretending to have dialed the wrong number just now, why had he suddenly spoken?

He had sent me so many messages in the afternoon, and just now he had been so perfunctory. After hearing my “confession,” he still didn’t plainly refuse me.

Why did he want to announce the divorce, why did he stop Shen Yuesheng’s car, why did he treat me warmly one moment and coldly the next?

Chen Xi was incomparably tangled up in Lin Yiran’s attitude, unable to say what they counted as now.

Lin Yiran asked, “Did things go smoothly today?”

Chen Xi answered, “Mm.”

“If you run into any problems during event execution, you can send me messages anytime. If I see them, I’ll definitely reply. If you run into something urgent, you can call.” Lin Yiran felt that since he had replied, he couldn’t keep being vague and wavering, couldn’t betray this feeling, couldn’t hurt someone this good.

“Okay, thank you, Brother Lin.”

That wasn’t what Lin Yiran wanted to say, but right now he had no standing to ask about Chen Xi and Shen Yuesheng’s relationship, and besides work he didn’t know what else to say.

The negotiation expert who could speak eloquently and with flowers on his tongue seemed a little tongue-tied tonight. He repeated and described the previous sentence in detail, hoping Chen Xi could understand what he meant: “You can send me more messages. The difficulties you encounter in event execution, or anything else… you can also call me anytime. But I’ll be busier during the day, after 10 p.m. basically I’m free…”

The person on the other end let out an “ah.” Lin Yiran sighed and thought: how am I supposed to say it so that you understand?

Chen Xi looked at the call time jumping on the phone screen, every second felt very long. The three voices in his mind each argued their own point and screamed wildly. Chen Xi was afraid he couldn’t control his emotions, and wanted to end this voice call that made him keep imagining things.

“Brother Lin, if there’s nothing else…”

“If there’s nothing else, I can’t voice call with you?”

Chen Xi: Σ(⊙▽⊙”a？

The little fool was dazed and only knew how to go “ah,” by the time you figured it out, I’d already be holding it in until I died.

Lin Yiran hadn’t wanted to trick Chen Xi anymore, but seeing that he still didn’t get it, he said on purpose in a somewhat impatient tone, “If you’re not free then you don’t need to…”

“I have time!” Chen Xi covered his chin and found his mouth, then slapped his face, confirming he wasn’t dreaming.

Lin Yiran had nothing better to do and was calling me… was he also, like me, looking forward to the call?

So, I didn’t misunderstand, he cared about me!

The secret crush buried deep in his heart surged through countless days and nights. Chen Xi carefully sealed away that feeling. He had once been afraid that immoral emotion would see the light of day, and he had never even thought he would get a response.

Tonight Lin Yiran tore open the seal and gave him an answer.

Chen Xi always felt that expecting anything from Lin Yiran was a luxury, but at this moment, that luxury had come true. Every nerve in his body began to stir with excitement, the trembling like warm currents spreading through his whole body.

The surging emotion erupted from underground, like blazing lava. Chen Xi could no longer stop the heat waves in his heart, tears like erupting magma, impossible to restrain. The scalding tears melted him, and every cell was roaring, bursting out the most primitive, strongest impulse.

“Brother Lin, you…” Why did you want to call me?

He had never been timid when negotiating with Wang Yaohua, never afraid when negotiating with Sun Xingshun, but when voice calling with Lin Yiran, Chen Xi was so excited that he lost his voice.

Maybe tonight’s moonlight was too clear, so Lin Yiran rarely shed his rotten, heavy shell.

He guessed what Chen Xi wanted to ask, and honestly gave him an answer: “I originally planned to pick you up today, so I got off work early. Sitting in the car, I suddenly thought of you, so I called you.”

Chen Xi half-opened his mouth, trying hard to recover his voice. “I…”

He was so excited he didn’t know what to say, and with a blank in his head he just said, “I don’t know what to say to you.”

Lin Yiran: …What a coincidence, I don’t know either.

The generation gap between the two of them couldn’t be bridged in a day or two, but now neither of them wanted to hang up the voice call.

“Ah, I don’t mean that I don’t want to talk to you.” Chen Xi covered his burning cheek and thought: I need to say a bit more, say a bit more of something.

After suffering the fish restaurant’s runaway, then the coffee shop’s rejection, Chen Xi gathered his courage for the third time. He clumsily touched his Adam’s apple and ordered himself to speak: “I’m free, I can send you messages, call you.”

Lin Yiran said, “Okay.” I won’t run away again.

Chen Xi had never dated anyone, and even less did he know how to develop feelings with a boss who was 10 years older than him.

The love rookie once again asked Baidu Experience for advice, searched the big category “dating,” set the subcategory tags as “boss, older by 10 years, god-level looks, same sex,” and after a little hesitation added “asshole.”

Because the filtering conditions were too strict, Baidu couldn’t give him any experience.

The schizophrenic patient thought and thought without any result, rolling around on the bed while hugging a pillow. His foot accidentally kicked the headboard, and the pain made him bare his teeth. Chen Xi held his foot and blew on it several times, experiencing what it meant for joy to turn into sorrow.

Then he looked at his horoscope again. Aries had only 5 stars for love luck, while career luck from tomorrow to the weekend was all 1 star.

An alarm sounded in his head, and Chen Xi felt that “stubbing his foot” was heaven’s hint to him. He couldn’t let himself get drunk on love, he had to keep business first at all times!

So, the business elite who kept the big picture in mind switched browsers to look up event execution precautions. After reading not even two lines, he switched back to the previous browser and continued looking up date locations.

To hell with career drive, I want to date!

Two grown men going shopping and watching movies was too weird. Chen Xi couldn’t imagine what it would look like if he and Lin Yiran appeared in those situations. The only setting he could think of that suited the two of them was “bed.”

Chen Xi: …

Fine, I admit I was a little horny.

Wanted to sleep, but doing that thing was too painful T T

Pink bubbles floated for most of the night. Chen Xi rolled around on the bed until he was a little tired. He patted his head, glanced at the time, 0:00, and wanted to send Lin Yiran a “happy midnight,” but after typing it, he deleted it.

“So stupid!” Chen Xi turned off the small night light, looked through the chat interface again, and set his phone to airplane mode.

As the love-addled brain cooled slightly, Chen Xi suddenly thought, Lin Yiran didn’t say he wanted to date me!

He only said I could send more messages. He didn’t refuse me, but that didn’t mean he wanted to date me either!

I got excited for nothing!

After rolling around a few more times on the bed, the insomnia patient bundled the blanket together and夹ed it between his legs, contentedly stroking the blanket edge, biting it, rubbing against the saliva, and muttering in a small voice with a red face, “It’s all your fault, you only said half your words and kept me hanging, I’m going to bite you to death!”

Chen Xi rolled around on the bed and, with no other choice, counted sheep, but he still couldn’t catch even a trace of sleepiness.

Lin Yiran, this thousand-year-old demon, stirred up his thoughts, and the tide in Chen Xi’s heart surged. The rolling water dragged him into the vortex of insomnia. The silence by the pillow formed a sharp contrast with the restlessness inside him. Chen Xi checked his phone again, afraid of missing anything important. After confirming there were no messages, he got out of bed and put the phone on the table. He thought: if I put the phone farther away, so I can’t reach it while sleeping, then I won’t be able to check messages and I can fall asleep peacefully.

He was obviously very sleepy, but as soon as his head touched the pillow, the stirring emotion surged again.

The schizophrenic patient’s fragile nerves couldn’t stand stimulation. Too sweet a fantasy was a burden for Chen Xi.

Insomnia was inner consumption, it was torment. He knew that tomorrow he had to “fight a hard battle,” and what awaited him was heavy work, but he couldn’t stop.

Thinking of Lin Yiran pinning him against the wall in the freight elevator room, his sexy low voice whispering in his ear, the rolling Adam’s apple, the sexy collarbone, the slender fingers, the deep eyes…

Chen Xi got turned on.

His body was very hot, very restless, the source of excitement moved from his head down below, and he exhaled scorching air.

Thinking of the fish restaurant’s vague touches, the joined hands in the glacier ravine, Chen Xi used both hands to hold his right hand, imagined one of his hands as Lin Yiran’s, and sent them together down below.

Chen Xi wasn’t used to doing this. His inexperienced body couldn’t withstand the real touch, and his shoulders kept jerking up and down.

Those well-defined fingers, elegantly twirling a pen on the office desk, touching something hard with his hand in the coffee shop, casually flicking a lighter with a carefree attitude… at this moment, they were intertwined with his hand, stroking inch by inch.

Chen Xi closed his eyes. His slender, dense eyelashes trembled in the night, his neck tried hard to lift upward, and his snow-white shoulders rose out of the blanket. Every inch of his skin was emitting desire.

“Brother Lin, Brother Lin…”

Dopamine boiled in the cerebral lobes, the lentiform nucleus stretched open its fan-shaped leaves, the hot brain matter flickered, the center crackled with lightning and howled with wind, hot delusion swept through the hippocampus and pried at the amygdala, the room that imprisoned the left and right brain was swept apart, the two brain nuclei got tangled together, trembling until the blood boiled, hot enough to explode the universe, the galaxy drifting and mist-like, white clouds吐雾, rivers and mountains burning, complex neurons under multiple rounds of stimulation expressed the simplest, most primitive behavior,

“Ah!”

White light flashed, heat surged, and the end of desire was extreme satisfaction and infinite emptiness.

Boiling fireworks rolled up rainbow candy and fell from above his head, while enthusiasm rode off on a tricycle.

His body changed from upright to slanted, then to horizontal. Chen Xi curled up by the head of the bed, gasping hard. Tiredly, he used the back of his clean hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead, turned on the small night light, and got up.

His legs were a little weak. Unlike that day, that day Chen Xi could feel a strong tearing sensation, it was very painful, but very real.

Now it felt light and floating, as if he were stepping on cotton, his body in the clouds, comfortable, but unreal.

Chen Xi felt that he really was just a cheap life. He couldn’t get used to the coffee business elites always drank, couldn’t get used to the tight custom suits, couldn’t adapt to his secret crush suddenly barging into his life, and even when doing this thing he had to look for trouble to suffer!

He almost wished some beast would suddenly pry open his door in the middle of the night and pin him to the bed. He would kick him, scratch him, entangle him, and while cursing that beast, he would cry out that it felt good.

Chen Xi changed into a pair of underwear and said in a muddled state of mind, “That would have to feel so good.”