ACM | Chapter 3.7

I was about to stop Jinhoo hyung, thinking he was being too much for picking a fight with the one who was treating us, when their tension naturally broke off. Jinhoo hyung’s phone started ringing.

“Oh, Chorong-ah, I’m eating with the guys.”

Thump.

Whenever Chorong nuna came between hyung and me, my heart always thudded uncontrollably. I tried to keep my cool and stirred at the soba bowl in front of me. Why did they have to keep contacting each other even today? A pointless resentment rose up inside me.

“I’ll call you later tonight, then.”

Hyung ended the call while patting my head a couple of times, as if he had noticed me. Even so, I still did not feel any better. It would probably not end with just a call before bed, and he would likely try to meet Chorong nuna tonight.

* * *

“I’m going home, so drop me off at the intersection over there.”

“You’re going to Gyuseok’s place? Then let’s just the three of us hang out today.”

The lamb was as expensive as it was delicious. Except for Sungmin hyung, who was driving, the rest of us had alcohol too, so the bill went up even more. We were moving to another place in Sungmin hyung’s car. The topic had come up that we should have more drinks as a second round, but Gyuseok hyung said he was going back first.

Then Sungmin hyung, humming in a cheerful mood and turning the wheel, said the remaining three of us should just hang out. Behind him, Jinhoo hyung whispered into my ear at a volume only I could hear.

‘Should I tell Oh Sungmin to leave too?’

‘It’s not like that’s necessary…’

‘Don’t send him away? I was thinking we could do something dirty with you.’

‘Ah.’

I did not dislike hanging out with kind Sungmin hyung either, and since he had paid for the meal today, it felt rude to cancel the rest of the plans in a row. So I only said we did not have to leave Sungmin hyung out, but Jinhoo hyung started shaking my heart again with a proposal that would tempt me. The words asking to do it again today tickled my ear like a snake tempting me to eat the fruit of knowledge.

If I did not do it with hyung today, he would definitely meet Chorong nuna tonight and have sex with her… With that in mind, I think I nodded at hyung’s suggestion without thinking.

We bought a lot of alcohol and went into Jinhoo hyung’s officetel. Sungmin hyung was still with us.

While Sungmin hyung was setting the cheese pieces he had bought as snacks and drinks onto a plate, Jinhoo hyung suddenly told me to go shower. A hoobae going into a sunbae’s studio apartment and even taking a shower there was not exactly normal. Even though Sungmin hyung might find my showering suspicious, Jinhoo hyung only kept pushing me into the bathroom, and Sungmin hyung showed no sign of suspicion at all.

After I slowly washed up and put all my clothes back on with some struggle, only Jinhoo hyung remained in the house. Sitting on the sofa and popping open a can of beer, Jinhoo hyung winked at me.

“I sent Sungmin off.”

“The lamb was expensive… I feel bad for sending Sungmin sunbae away like that.”

“Don’t worry. We can pay him back with something better.”

He chuckled and smiled, and I smiled back. As I slowly took off my top and approached him, he spread his legs wide and trapped me between his two thighs. His firm thigh muscles seized me with such force, like a snake wrapping around its prey with its whole body and suffocating it to death.

Looking down at his attractive gray-brown eyes, I slowly lowered my face. My lips overlapped with hyung’s lips, which smelled faintly of beer, and soon our two hot tongues tangled obscenely together. After stirring up my mouth for quite a while, hyung pulled away and said in an excessively low voice, “Let’s do that thing again today. The eye-covering one.”

Hyung’s right hand held a jet-black blindfold. Since this was our second try after the last time, I did not get flustered by his suggestion and instead trembled with anticipation. If my eyes were covered, I could not see the handsome Jinhoo hyung, but because of that, I could focus more on touch, which made the sensation feel different.

This time, instead of a clumsy piece of cloth, it was a dedicated blindfold that fit snugly over my eyes. It was the kind that held my eyes and head tightly but softly, and I wondered where hyung had even gotten something like that. It somehow felt like something he would have bought at an adult goods shop.

“Haa. Ah…”

“Turned on?”

“Yeah… hngh!”

Hyung asked playfully while licking my nipples. Since I could not see ahead, I could not predict even a single thing about the caresses hyung was pouring onto my body, which made me tremble even more. The excitement that came from that was definitely a big part of it too.

“Seriously. You’re like a bitch in heat.”

“…Hyung. Ahng…”

I knew hyung liked women, but even in a situation like this where he was caressing my completely naked body, calling me a bitch because I was a man felt bad. But what could I do?

To avoid ruining hyung’s mood, I just gave him my body and waited for the next step. Hyung shoved fingers coated in cold gel into my slit and started loosening me up by widening the hole. The wet, squeaking sounds rang embarrassingly in my ear.

“You’d like it if anyone fucked you, wouldn’t you. Look at you leaking down there… Even though you’re not even a woman.”

On the other hand, during sex, hyung’s crude words also became one of the things that excited me. I did not want to admit it, but being treated like a woman also seemed like a strange kind of stimulus. If Jinhoo hyung, who liked women so much, got turned on because I felt like a woman, then that in itself was a little reassuring. Not that I wanted to pretend to be a woman.

Wet sounds and each of our breathy moans tangled together, filling the room with strange noise. Soon, hyung’s rough thrusting, driving his body completely into my inner walls, followed, and the loud pounding sounds of bodies slamming together drowned everything else out.

At some point, I was the only one letting out words and sentences, while hyung, like a beast in the middle of mating, shouted mostly meaningless moans and cries. Even the provocative, vulgar way he spoke before disappeared without a trace.

Thud, thud!

“Haaang… hyungg…”

“Huk, huhuht. Hah!”

“Ah. Please do it inside! Hurry!”

“Hngh!”

That was already hyung’s third orgasm. Since my eyes had been blocked the whole time, it was hard to tell exactly how many times hyung had cum, but if I thought about the roaring moans right before ejaculation, the short and violent thrusting motion as he reached climax, and the pattern of a brief lull followed by the next round of sex, that was how it was.

The pain from the abused hole made my whole butt ache. The moment hyung took the blindfold off, I checked by touching around between my buttocks, and fortunately it did not seem torn. In a somewhat funny pose, I bent my waist sharply and leaned forward, spreading my buttocks with both hands and checking the hole in the mirror. There were only slightly swollen traces, and not even a sign of bleeding, let alone semen that usually soaked my inner walls completely.

“You didn’t do it inside today?”

“I used a condom today. You get uncomfortable if I always cum inside.”

So that was it. It was touching that hyung did try to be considerate of me in bed. Since even the semen I had spilled during sex had been wiped away with tissue, my body was in a reasonably clean state, with no traces of either hyung’s or my semen on me.

Since I had already showered before sex, I did not even plan to go back into the bathroom and just lay down on the bed, closing my eyes. I was pretty exhausted, so if hyung had not spoken to me, I probably would have fallen asleep for sure.

“It’s late. Can you get home by yourself?”

“Can’t I sleep here?”

“…Chorong is coming over soon.”

“……”

As soon as I heard hyung’s words, I sat up and my expression completely lost control, twisting into a miserable look. Tears welled up in my eyes, and a stinging, spicy sensation rushed to the tip of my nose. It was not like we were leaving a hotel or motel room together and going our separate ways.

The way he was sending me out right after having sex with me felt so cruel. And at this late hour, after I had even asked if I could stay over. I had not even guessed that when he brought me to the studio, he would be making a night call to Chorong nuna and then bringing her here…

“Ha… Doyun, this is the kind of relationship we agreed to in the first place.”

“I know… But still, what kind of thing is sending me out right after sex?”

“We used to finish sex and you’d go home just fine. Your place is not even that far away, so why are you being so stubborn today?”

“Are you… planning to do it with Chorong nuna later too?”

Bang!

Hyung slammed the table so violently I worried the glass top might shatter. I had never seen him get this angry before, so I was instantly frightened, but I still did not relax the expression glaring at him. Even though his face, with his brows deeply furrowed, had never looked more frightening.

“Why the hell would you ask that?”

“After doing it with me for less than thirty minutes?! You did it three times today and still want to do it with Chorong nuna too? Are you addicted to sex or something?!”

“Fuck… Hey. I keep telling you you’re pretty, pretty, so now you think there’s nothing out of bounds? You really don’t know when to stop talking.”

Jinhoo hyung was right a hundred times over. In the first place, knowing full well about Chorong nuna and still agreeing to hide like a shadow as his secret lover was my own choice. I was supposed to be the kind of person who was satisfied just by picking up the scraps of affection hyung occasionally threw my way. The problem was I always wanted too much and had no sense of my own place.

“Do you think that’s weird? Going to bed with two people in a row in one day?”

“……”

“When the situation calls for it, I do it all. You’ll understand later too.”

“I… I don’t understand!”

“Ha… Doyun. Don’t act like the victim. We’re accomplices.”

At his words that I was an accomplice too, my chest jolted. Just like he said, I did not even have the right to be angry at hyung’s two-timing behavior and act like I was the victim. It was completely true, but today it stabbed my heart like a knife.

The tears that had been held back until now could not defy gravity anymore, and they flowed down my cheeks, carving a path across both sides of my face. I hated and resented Jinhoo hyung for looking at me as if I were pathetic while I cried miserably.

“Is it that hard to just love me alone?”