ACM | Chapter 2

Two weeks had passed since that embarrassing confession incident. Thankfully, there had been no blatant contempt or outing from people around me yet. Since Jinhoo sunbae and I were in different majors, we had no real points of contact, and he probably did not feel the need to go out of his way to track down Art College students who might know me and out me. I thought it would be nice if, like this, I could avoid running into sunbae and the events of that day would naturally fade from his memory.

There was one problem, though, and that was the general education class we shared with sunbae. It was a three-credit class held twice a week, so it had a big effect on my GPA, but I had skipped it for two weeks because I was worried about running into sunbae. So my attendance score was probably already terrible, and since it was not the start of the semester, I could not even drop the class.

There was nothing I could do. We had not seen each other’s faces for two weeks, and we had not contacted each other at all, so I figured I was already out of sunbae’s life. Even if I ran into him in class, if I quietly went along like we did not know each other, I thought we could get through it without bothering each other, and just as I stepped into the lecture room with that hope in mind.

Whoosh-.

“Huh?”

Suddenly, the hood of my clothes was grabbed from behind like someone had seized me by the collar, and my body, which had been trying to enter the lecture room, was dragged right back out the door.

I desperately turned my head to see who was dragging me. And I stared wide-eyed in disbelief. The one pulling me along was Jinhoo sunbae, with a very displeased expression on his face.

“Come here, you.”

“S… Sunbae.”

Bang!

Sunbae shoved me into the empty lecture room with the lights off using brutal force, then shut the door. He stood firmly in front of me as if blocking the exit. Today, his tall height and broad build felt even bigger.

Was he angry because I had been rude to him that day… or was he in a bad mood because I was gay…? I braced myself to get severely scolded, lowered my head, and bit my lower lip.

“Have you been avoiding me lately?”

“No. It’s just… I’ve been busy.”

“Ryu Doyun.”

“…Yes?”

“After you left like that that day, I was going crazy too.”

Strangely enough, sunbae’s voice did not sound especially angry. It was rather kind and soft, the way he spoke to his girlfriends, which made me a little confused. As I had felt before, sunbae was rough and cold toward men, but with women, he always had a fundamentally kind attitude.

Even when he dealt with me, who was not a woman, there were many times I felt my heart flutter because he was especially gentle, as if he were treating a female hoobae. But that too was only because he had instinctively been nice to me since he had figured out that I liked him.

And the words sunbae said next were truly unexpected.

“Why do you have to look so much like my type?”

“……”

What is he trying to say now…?

Until just a moment ago, my heart had been pounding in fear, but now it started beating like a cotton hammer in a different way. At sunbae’s words, which flowed in a direction different from what I had expected, I ended up staring at him with a dumb, powerless expression.

“It’s such a shame that you’re not a woman.”

Thump thump thump-.

Before I knew it, sunbae’s hand was cupping my face. The slightly reddened area around my eyes, where tears had even welled up a little from nerves earlier, grew even redder with heat as sunbae’s warm, long fingers came closer and slowly rubbed over it.

“Doyun…”

What followed after that was shocking. The sunbae I had given up on, thinking he would never accept me for the rest of my life, made me an impossible, strange proposal. It was an indecent and abnormal proposal, but for me, who was completely smitten with him, it was a proposal I could not refuse. Sunbae probably knew that too. That I would accept immediately.

“Okay.”

Sunbae was the most handsome person I had ever seen, so I did not even have time to think about anything other than feeling grateful that he had not pushed me away and had taken me in. Whatever form that might take.

The place sunbae and I went straight to after skipping class was a love hotel near school. Unlike sunbae, who had clearly been to places like this many times, I had never been to a love hotel before, so I fidgeted and stood there awkwardly like an idiot.

He stripped off his clothes with quick, practiced motions and, without even taking time to wash up, pushed me down onto the bed and immediately got to the point. He said we should hurry and check our sexual compatibility.

“Is this your first time?”

“Yes.”

Even after learning that I had no sexual experience at all, sunbae still seemed most concerned with working out his own desperate lust. Our first time together happened with full-on insertion from the start, without even kissing or foreplay.

When I was writhing in pain and his cock would not go in properly, the closest thing to foreplay sunbae gave me was reluctantly squeezing out some love gel from the nightstand, which had probably passed through who knows whose hands, and loosening me up back there with his fingers.

“Ah. Slowly…”

“It’s okay, okay. It’s going in little by little.”

“Nggh.”

“Ah, this feels good.”

The sensation of something hot and hard pushing into me, stretching me tight from the inside, was vividly clear. Even while I was sucking in breaths from the pain that made my spine and tailbone ache, sunbae’s face, soaked in ecstasy, and the lazy moans he let out took my mind away. He was feeling pleasure inside me. Just that fact alone made this moment worthwhile.

“Hyung. Do you like it?”

“A lot.”

“If hyung likes it… I do too…. Ugh-!”

“Haa! This is driving me crazy, you…!”

Thud thud thud-. The instant he finished inserting himself all the way to the root, as if a switch had been flipped, he suddenly changed his attitude, clamped a hand hard on my hips, and ramped up his pace, launching into fast thrusts.

Our first time was rough and painful, but hyung’s powerful body and aroused expression as he got lost in sex were far sexier and more stimulating than anything I had imagined every night. Just that visual stimulation alone was enough to get my cock hard with excitement.

“Hah… haa…. Does it hurt? It hurts, right?”

“A little, y… yes.”

Even while worrying whether I was hurting, hyung did not stop at just once that night. A body opened for the first time to someone else was abused for quite a long time, making it painful and leaving a bad feeling that I would probably wake up sore the next day. But as for my condition, it would be fine once it got better again, right?

My body was not in a state that would provide much sexual stimulation to hyung, who had been aroused by women’s body types. Even so, the fact that hyung was getting some pleasure from my body made me so excited that I could endure all the pain and strain because of that alone.

May 3. My first experience, and hyung’s first experience with a man. Hyung said we should name this day as each other’s “first experience.” Just by giving it a name tied to a specific date like an anniversary, the bond between hyung and me felt tight and special. Like ordinary lovers.

Before the sun rose, hyung left the room first, leaving me sprawled on the bed and unable to even hold myself up. He said if I wore the same clothes today as I had yesterday, his girlfriend would realize he had stayed out overnight. So he had left the love hotel at dawn to change clothes before his morning class.

I had been so overwhelmed by the bliss of having sex with hyung that I could not close my eyes for even a moment, and when it was time to check out, I endured the throbbing pain below, finished showering, and headed to school.

The school campus was fairly large, but since I had memorized hyung’s class route during my years of unrequited love, I looked around for places he might be. And then I found hyung’s back as he walked hand in hand with a woman with a slim back view. Unlike me, whose rear was torn and whose walk had become awkward, hyung was matching pace with his girlfriend in light steps. He was handsome even today.

When I looked at the tall, slim male and female couple that matched each other like a picture, the devil-like proposal hyung had made in the empty lecture room before we went to the love hotel yesterday echoed vividly in my ears, as if every last word were being replayed exactly as it had been.

‘Of course, I do want to sleep with you, but separate from that, I’m a normal guy.’

‘Yes…’

‘Anyway, I need women constantly. It’d be a bit much to stop seeing women just because I’m seeing a man, right? I’m the kind of guy who can’t live without women.’

‘I know…’

‘If I had a girlfriend and a boyfriend separately, then maybe.’

‘……’

‘Honestly, even my current girlfriend, what would she suspect if I said I was close with a male hoobae? I want to meet both somehow…. But is it rude to say that? I can’t possibly expect something like that from you.’

Hyung kept making these ambiguous remarks, not quite a proposal and not quite a complaint, while tickling the nape of my neck over and over. Maybe the neck had been an erogenous zone I had not even realized I had, because my body shrank back and the front of my pants bulged.

The embarrassment of showing that in front of sunbae, along with the subtle sexual stimulation rising inside me, made my breathing quicken. The thought that I did not care as long as I could sleep with sunbae began to coil inside me.

‘Sorry. Pretend you didn’t hear that.’

‘Sunbae…’

‘Hm?’

‘You don’t have to break up with your girlfriend…’

Last night, after sleeping with me, hyung had informed me that he would continue dating his current girlfriend. The woman who had appeared in the conversation at the bar before had already been met and broken up with long ago, and the woman he was currently dating was someone else. Right now, in front of my eyes, the woman with the especially pretty smile who was walking hand in hand with Jinhoo hyung.

And Jinhoo hyung and I were now dating too. The difference was that his girlfriend had no idea about hyung and my relationship, and I knew all about hyung’s double life.

So… the fact that I joined in on his cheating antics in order to date him means I am an accomplice too.